#But when we come out of this tomorrow
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Being trans right now is a lose in every way scenario. There's a couple of avenues you can take, and they all result in being fucked in one way or another. Say you want to create content and/or become a public figure. You're immediately starting far behind anybody else because a large portion of the population will just refuse to engage with anything you do. If you don't publicize that you're trans (which frankly is something that only some trans people can do in the first place), you'll be attacked for not using your platform to support other trans people. If you don't want a platform, you have to deal with being steamrolled by the current political climate, and having your right to exist as you are be a constant battleground. If you have it in you to speak out, there's only so much you can do and it feels like a losing battle. Depending on what you can and/or want to look/sound like, you may not ever get the chance to speak out or be immediately batted down if you do. If you want to cite sources, you have to practically get a degree in public speaking and know how to actually study papers or else you'll be spoken over and around. If you do all that, you'll be viewed as less trustworthy because you must be inherently biased, and thus even the people who are on the fence can be easily convinced to throw out anything you say.
Right now, I can't be me and fight for my rights without at absolute best a significant mental toll. This is why now more than ever, we need allies. This is a fight we cannot win alone. If you care about trans people--- maybe you have somebody in your life, or you just think that we are human and deserve the right to live without hatred being spewed at us all the time--- then please donate what you can whether that be your time, your love, your energy, or anything else that would help.
#I know this is all very pessimistic sounding but I want to remind all my trans siblings out there that we will make it through this#I won't sugar coat it- not all of us will. And we should mourn those that we lose#But when we come out of this tomorrow#There will still be more of us at each other's side. Ready to continue fighting for our rights.#queer#lgbtq#trans#lgbt#transgender#boop#trans rights#trans rights are human rights#transgender rights#trans healthcare#stay safe out there y'all
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Really I think nothing shouts "my first Presidential election as a politically active person was 2016" more than the fact that when I feel hope and excitement for the future (possible President Harris) for more than five minutes I immediately get a crushing, all-consuming anxiety of "feeling this positive emotion now is going to make it so much worse when the worst thing possible happens" to the extent that I'll probably need my break-glass-in-case-of-emergency anxiety medication.
#politics#us politics#kamala harris#donald trump#2016 election#2024 elections#personal post#I can't feel any hope about politics without my brain reflexively shutting it down in case things get too nice before the fall#I know Harris has flaws#But I just like her--she's more progressive and feels joy and isn't shy about hating Trump#But then my brain is like “do not get attached or The Pain will be worse later”#This happened in 2020 too---I couldn't believe it when we won I was so busy preparing for the worst#harris for president#democrats#vote democrat#seriously vote democrat#If you are following me or reading my fic and capable of voting in the US election and are not voting Democrat please feel free to fuck off#You're the reason Trump won in 2016 and if you prove my anxiety brain right I hope all your food comes out burnt for the rest of your life#good thing I have therapy tomorrow
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Normally, I wouldn't really say anything about the drama and stuff, because that's not what I'm here for and honestly I feel like a lot of it is just none of my business. But, it just feels so close to home for me that I can't help but say something. Because here's the thing people aren't going to talk about and probably don't even realize, but I think so much of this drama actually has to do with Dream being autistic.
Just notice the themes of what Tubbo said about Dream being weird, inappropriate, not considering the social boundaries, not communicating, coming across wrong… etc these are all things that can be attributed to Dream literally not knowing better because of neurodivergence. That’s not an excuse but an explanation to know the difference between Dream texting Tommy’s mom out of being manipulative versus not understanding how that breaks a social boundary. That’s not to say Dream should get a free pass to do whatever but I think in the same way we take into consideration other people’s ages and their naivety and obliviousness and inexperience into consideration, Dream’s neurodivergence should be considered too. It is valid. It makes a difference between manipulative and malicious intent versus simply not seeing it the same way.
And really the sad thing is, that I think people will always dislike Dream. At the end of the day, I think that will never change, because even if he was the most perfect person people would still dislike him because of an underlying subconscious response to him not being like the rest. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that he is made the villain in real life and in the dsmp, because it is simply a psychological fact that people inherently dislike autistic people. It’s not because they are ableist it’s just we don’t act like they do so that makes us weird and therefore unlikeable. And it’s hard to understand us because our brains our literally different and as has been said throughout history what we don’t understand we hate, we fear, we see as evil, we attack. Why does Dream get canceled and attacked over and over again? Not because they are true and it proves a pattern that he’s shitty, but because society is so desperate to find a more tangible reason to hate him other than the fact that they just do. Because his behavior breaks social rules he didn’t realize existed. Because he’s easy pickings. Because in my opinion it all comes down to autism and honestly until that piece is actually taken into consideration nothing will probably resolve.
#agh it’s so frustrating to watch something play out when you know exactly why because it’s played out in your own life#when you see people say things and yet not understand what eachother are saying#agdjnsgjfnwhd…it just… oh as an autistic person who has masked so well I have in many ways become the bridge between neurodivergent and#neurotypical it is infuriating to see this all unfolding for years and not being about to do anything to highlight what’s happening#dream#dreamblr#dreamwastaken#also like with politics - like you don’t get it but in the US south you can’t just hate everyone who votes a certain way or whatever because#you’d be hating your whole family your friends your boss your coworkers like it’s easy in Britain to have you high horse but that’s just not#how it is here… I can’t afford to just hate everyone it’s just not that simple#and when it comes to his sexuality. is it so unfair of him to just not know. like not want to say he’s straight or gay because he doesn’t#know… should we be allowed to figure things out…#….. I should go to bed I just I wanted to say something because tubbo making comments like - it’s not that black and white and stuff to an#autistic person had be slamming my head because yea it seems that way to us by default#probably delete this tomorrow… I don’t know… good night peeps
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The thing with the "why are you making them look bad" "why are you finding reasons to hate" kinda responses when someone brings up racist remarks and microagressions both from back in the "fetus" era and all the way till WAD etc, it reveals the way too many people view bigotry as something that happens Elsewhere. Something that is done by Other People and not us you me the people around us the people we love the people we idolise. But everyone is capable of harm, and it's quite revealing with defensive attitudes like that that people assume we're calling to boycott or asking you to stop feeling anything positive towards them or whatever else it's built up to me.
Guys. Even we haven't stopped feeling positively about them (at least for the most part, and those who have, fair play to them we all have our own personal threshold for how much we tolerate). Like that's the whole reason we're around, you kidding? Nothing I watch is free from the problematic stuff. I watch comedians who make off-colour jokes but I still feel fondly towards those comedians without feeling the need to erase the fact that they make problematic jokes and need to do better. I watch shows with bigoted themes without feeling the need to scrap them completely but I also don't hold back on my criticisms just because I like the show. And if anyone else who enjoys these things mocks those criticisms or expects me to shut up about them I see it rightfully as the insult that it is.
These social issues are bigger than us, and the thing is they really do change at a snail's pace. But putting another hurdle in front of the snail by saying "this is just spreading hate, you just hate them, go watch something else then" isn't really helping that pace. It's just showing that because an issue isn't personally affecting you, you're seeing it as not worthy of receiving criticism.
I watch youtubers far more "problematic" than DnP actually. And I love them! And I see them grow over time, I see it reflected in how they talk in videos from years ago vs now and it gives me a lot of hope. But people change because they are given a reason to change. And trying to get those affected and hurt to not even express disappointment is not gonna get you anywhere except making it clear to us who is a safe person looking to make the space welcoming in a material sense and who is just keeping up appearances and waiting for us to tire ourselves out and leave.
#dnp#dan and phil#phandom#like seriously y'all are acting like we don't also enjoy and love their stuff and deserve a seat at the table come on#if they make problematic jokes about a queer identity that you identify with tomorrow wouldn't you also want it addressed?#wouldn't you also feel left out if people attacked you for bringing it up when you do?#it's the same principle here
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It's crazy how I can be like "I'm having a depressive episode" until I'm with the right people and then it's like oh no I'm ok actually
#i AM having a depressive episode going on a couple weeks now and it's a bit alarming#exacerbated by anxiety and uncertainty and my inability to handle my roommate situation#but tonight i watched the kids for small group and read them all my favorite picture books#(we got to the end of The Snowman and one little girl was like ''i don't like that when he melts because it is sad''#and one of the twins said ''i like it'')#and i told a couple people how awful my week has been and we commiserated in matter-of-fact tones#and i messed around on my phone and read gaudy night while my CG mom and dad did lesson prep and watched basketball#and now i'm going to bed and like actually i'm ok now#tomorrow will probably bring more tears and anger and deep exhaustion at the thought of doing anything#but oh well. we soldier on. in prayer and fellowship#(i hate the observable track record of my depression being tied to obvious and beyond-my-control life situations#but on the bright side there's a presumed end date for this one#and when i look back i remember less of the depression and more of the spiritual change that happened underneath it#hoping praying for the same to come out of now)#oh yeah and earlier i hung out with a friend and her shocked disbelief that i got rejected from the job i wanted#was really a balm on troubled waters. everyone else has just been sad and sympathetic#outsourcing the incredulous anger is helpful#i haven't seen her in a while since she had a baby and i forgot how much it helps to talk through academia stuff with her
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#ch594#summit war saga#jfc queuing from my phone temporarily bc i havent had internet for TWO WEEKS!!!!!#i still have 2 weeks in the queue but its making me nervous so here i am#goddddddd just so many things falling into the wrong place#like my entire router died. the guy who could have addressed the problem#didnt come the day i reported it but instead waited until after his 5 day vacation#and then it was put off for another day bc he had to catch up on other stuff#then we find out the issue is with the router itself so we had to order a new one#and then when they tried to install it today there were more issues#so now i have to wait until tomorrow and im so fucking mad#well anyway
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[SOLUTION⋆QT]
#ffxiv#ffxiv oc#nira'sae#gpose#throwing this shit out at 1 in the morning knowing full well i'll get sad come tomorrow when nobody's seen it#because we are AWARE but not SMART#i dont think im very good at editting yet. but. getting there?#yeah. getting there.
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i love reading haikyuu tiktok shipping discourse comment sections. it's so entertaining seeing so many people with such bad taste.
#it's always the exact same shit every time too#“name a ship everyone ships but you hate” and it's always kurootsukki oikage atsuhina and tsukkikage#like with the amount of times i've seen those ships mentioned in that context i'm starting to believe that NO ONE ships them actually#how is atsuhina hate so common when 2AM mac n cheese literally exists#everyone's excuse is always 1 of 3 things: “i ship kagehina” “i ship sakuatsu” or “they're just friends”#guys... i hate to be the bearer or bad news.... but all three of these things can coexist#you can ship atsuhina AND sakuatsu AND kagehina... AND atsuhina can be besties#i mean i'm out here shipping tobio with half the fucking cast#these aren't real people. it's all about what makes you the happiest at that given moment#today i ship tsukikage. yesterday i shipped kagehina. tomorrow i will probably ship yamakage. WHO GIVES A FUCK#it boggles my mind that there are people out there who won't consider any other ship because they've already set their mind on one#HAIKYUU HAS AN INSANE LINEUP. YOU CAN'T SHIP JUST ONE#i saw someone who was scared to admit they shipped suna and atsumu......... guys#it's not that serious i promise#ALSO THE TERUYAMA HATE I SAW#“they haven't even met” BOOOOOORINGGGGG BOO BOO TOMATO TOMATO#fuck it. i'm gonna start shipping kiyoko with kanoka. kanokiyo. my new otp#kanokiyoyachi. my new fave ship. 100k mutual pining hurt/comfort slowburn coming soon to an ao3 page near you#we need to release ourselves from the chains of hatred and start getting crazier with this cast#haikyuu has too much shipping potential for y'all to be shipping the same 5 ships#lets get poly with it. shall we?#THE KAGEHINATSUKKIYAMA GRIND STARTS NOW💪#ASADAISUGA GANG WE RIDE AT DAWN🗣️#ATSUHINAKAGE AND/OR ATSUOIKAGE BRETHEREN WE DEPART AT HIGH NOON🔥#FUKUYAKUKUROKEN SHIPPERS OUR TIME IS NOW🦞#sigh.......... you guys get it#volleyball guys
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(WIP) Gojo sketch attempt #2 09132024
With eye color practice b/c the sketch isn't done and I'm impatient af
#I'm so tired of trying to fix that hand I'll just come back to it tomorrow#I was trying to stick to one sketch a day and told myself I didn't care if it didn't turn out but that was a lie#I'm also doing the thing where I keep drawing with my sketchbook at an angle so when I scan it the proportions look all wonky#early days. early days and I'm rusty but not as bad as I thought#keeping it up here we go#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#my art#the problem with drawing from screencaps is I always go beyond the screen and then the body proportions don't work like I thought
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Do you think this is the Finale of book 7? qwq
at this point I'm not going to believe it's actually over until we get the Diasomnia dorm reruns! those will be the portent I cling to in these times of uncertain anime character drama. 😰
honestly I'd been pretty convinced that 13 would be the end -- or that there might be, like, an epilogue chapter or something, but this would at least be the end of the main plot of 7. but now it looks like the Armor of Dawn Silver card is actually going to be for the second half next week, so...now I'm right back in "WHAT IS HAPPENING" camp! like, I can see a couple of possibilities of how that might still work out, but...well. I guess we'll find out tonight. :')
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#like. i could see something like. say. we get malleus' wrapup in this first half but then something happens with silver#and he has to help us save him#that's 100% just spitballin' though#honestly i think it's more likely the second half is just gonna need a lot of setup or something!#but again. we will find out. tonight.#i can't believe it's so soon auuuuugh#the timing of this just feels so specific to the anniversary that i'm even like#was this just a fun timing thing they wanted to do or was there some reason they needed to hit a certain point or something#like. idk. ortho's college gear#silver gets DOUBLE silver hair or something#my early-on theory that his name was legally silver silver turns out to be true#this is just more spitballin' don't take me too seriously#we will be able to look back on this tomorrow and laugh about how wrong i was#i'm just going into full hype mode here#'man i gotta stop playing the updates immediately when they come out at 2 am' WRONG past self you FOOL#who needs sleep when there are video game characters having emotional problems
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Remember when Lou used to care about character and class on the team? I do. I guess he just doesn’t give a fuck anymore…
HE’S NOT EVEN GOOD AT HOCKEY! BRING SOMEONE UP FROM BRIDGEPORT FOR FUCK’S SAKE!
Also I’m sure he’s gonna listen to Roy without any complaints 🙄
#brb killing myself over this#also the isles are known for having a close locker room and relationship and you’re bringing this piece of shit in???#and guess we know who lou voted for (unsurprisingly)#so i guess tonight and maybe tomorrow will be the last game i watch#unless he’s playing tonight which i guess I’ll have to find out…#and when the time comes that mikey or noah are back i’m gonna be livid if he gets to stay over izzy#isles lb
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work related question does anyone have any fun anime for likely 12-14 year olds that to their ulta-conservative conspiracy theory parents would have no objectionable content whatsoever that's not like . pokemon. i live in the most conservative area in michigan btw /hj
#gu6chan's musings#tl;dr so idk if i ever mentioned on this blog but i live in a very small town (less than 900 people in the TOWNSHIP which is like#...3? different towns? maybe 4)#i digress#and since i work in a public position its like#i've been trying to organise more community events this summer ESPECIALLY among the youth#and was like 'we can try appealing to hobbies; i think' and listed a couple suggestions like this and that#so i was talking to my higher ups about it and they were like 'OH! youre super into anime right'#and i was like 'uh... sure???' bc i hadn't seen ANYTHING in a hot second and am still stuck in 2008 so i dont know any new series#but they knew i was a bit of a nerd and weren't as acquainted being older so i can't blame them!! lol#anyways long story short there's been an anime club they've been trying to kickstart for like the last... 3 years?#for the local middleschool/highschool except they haven't been able to find any way to get the word accross#and i was like neato; cool; i'd love to help with that!! and told them i'd make a poster for it real quick (still haven't. work is tomorrow#so they gave me the login to crunchyroll (my first time using it) and were like 'go find some anime that kids might like!!! :)'#and i was like '...WOAH.' and told them it'd take a second bc this area is VERY conservative and there's a bit of cultural dissonance when#it comes to 'kid-appropriate' between japan and the US; particularly with nudity lmao#and a lot of even what's popular among kids (Chainsaw man; Jujutsu Kaisen i think?) wouldn't fly but ouaahahhgh#it still has to be entertaining to them and not feel like it's being 'dumbed down' i have a couple ideas like sailor moon; uhh....#cardcaptor sakura?#but those are mostly shoujo anime which is good!! But i'd also like to include some shounen-type stuff as well for balance ofc#and that's where the problem arises 😭 i'd also love to take a look at older anime since i'm still figuring out what the 'goal' of the club#is besides just having a place for kids to interact and make friends with each other like#do i want it to be based in looking at the history of anime as an art form and its evolution? should it be like a book club and more focuse#on discussing character arcs and writing? or maybe even linguistically based since I did mention wanting to help inspire kids to take up#different languages!! and i know a lot would love to learn japanese#but yeah a lot to figure out 😭 i might be cooked chat
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I'm very glad I'm as stable in my sobriety as i am bc i am definitely having cravings but I'm still able to think that it's not the answer.
#would being black out drunk feel good and be nice? yes for a few hours very much so#but then the consequences#and there would be many#my next therapy appointment is Tuesday#I'm gonna call tomorrow and see if i cant go a day early#i took away my husband's credit card#or well i told him 'i dont think you're someone who can use a CC responsibly'#and he is leaving it home and i put it in my desk#he is also giving me his bank account password and I'm check both of our accounts every Friday when i go over the budget#there's still a lot of apologies coming from my husband#i think he understands just how much he's fucked up#i told him that for me the last year is tainted now#every moment we shared for the last year he was lying to me#i look back and i feel sick#he might go spend a few nights at his parents to give me space to process and grieve#he doesn't want to tell him parents what he's done tho so i dont know what he'll say to them if he does go there for a few nights#he is also starting therapy asap to work through whatever caused this#and we'll be doing couples therapy in a few months#i still cant believe 10.000 is just gone#anyway#I'm sober and safe#and working on healing#ben gets personal
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MAWS Slade is possibly the most normal looking version of the character but also the most unhinged. Why is he so dramatic and alwaus so eager to kill people?
The fact that he's got golden eyes and absolutely snow white hair even tho he's like, what, a couple years older than Clark and Lois? Stupendous design choices all around, there's a reason why whenever he shows up my friend talks about his "draco malfoy slay", I love it so much.
And yeah, looks wise, he's not nearly as crazy looking as he can be. No fucked up goatee, no bell bottoms, no trailing silk ties to his mask (OG Slade had the most ass backward fashion sense, no wonder Addie divorced him). He barely looks anything like himself and it's very funny, but still normal. But in terms of character, he's just so much. He is incredibly dramatic, literally dragging his swords against the wall and actually for real flipping his hair getting ready to kill people who were interns only nine months ago. No one needs to be doing all of that. And you're so right anon, he's always so incredibly eager to cause bodily harm. It gives him literal joy and that's insane, he's so so happy about it. Anime Slade is over here being the embodiment of "if you love what you do, you never have to work a day in your life" while being part of alien Gitmo essentially, it's stupendous.
And this doesn't even touch on the fact that he seems to be perpetually irreverent. He seems to have a mocking disdain for nearly everyone, there's never not a moment where he's not being bitchy to someone for literally no reason. Other than, like, maybe two exceptions, this version of Slade is never sincere, at least as far as we've seen. He sees the lady who legit fried his eye out of his head and still decides to be caustic and flippant rather than being upset that she, you know, fried his eye out of his head. It's part of the reason why I always say that I hope he and Addie are married and he's got kids in this show, because someone with this personality not only having a somewhat functional relationship but also being the person most invested in it when compared to his partner is absolutely insane and also very funny. Plus, she's not gonna be shooting his eye out of his head because he nearly got their kid killed, so they don't even have to get divorced. Imagine this absolute bastard clocking out and going home to be an attempted family man. It's brilliant.
#personal#answered#anonymous#my adventures with superman#it's one of the reasons i'm loving chris parnell's performance in this show#because nearly every time slade shows up it legit feels like a performance#it feels like he's somewhat putting on a show#which makes sense since when we see him he tends to be around enemies he wants to intimidate#literally responding to fucking superman threatening him with either going 'you're outnumbered' or calling him dumb god bless#and even with other members of task force x this clearly isn't the most stable working environment#given that waller is allowing this pissing contest with lex#so makes sense the performance extends to work hours too#man he's just my favorite guy#hope he shows up in issue 2 of the MAWS tie in comic (which comes out tomorrow hell yeah)
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At this point is anyone really surprised that we are late night bear posting

#late night bear posting#again#*sigh*#we will regret this come tomorrow morning when we must drag our wretched selves out of bed and off to work#a misery entirely of our own making
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apparently surpassing and bottling up all your emotion isn’t actually good for you??
#i’ve been dealing w a bunch of stuff and just today my stepdad sprung on me that i needed to clear out half of my room bc they’re redoing#the wall? so me and my mom had to move everything (and it was a lot of shit)#all over the place and the one thing that’s so overwhelming to me is mess and clutter so my room is just that#and they made me do it right when i got home from work so i barely got to relax#bc the people were coming tomorrow morning#and i’m busy friday saturday and sunday so my rooms just gonna be a mess and for god knows how long#but at least they were coming tomorrow while i was at work so i didn’t have to deal with that BUT NOW#they just called and said they weren’t gonna be able to come until friday…. so i literally have nowhere to go#so i just locked myself in my room and sobbed and then my mom found me and was very sweet but still#oh also i’ve been planning to surprise my mom with a painting of our late cat for mother’s day but while we were cleaning out the room#she found the canvas with the sketch on it so it’s basically not a surprise anymore#anywayyyyyy#personal
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